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this week quite busy =/ no time to log my blog.another reason is due to friendster is block in ns camps.cant use blogs there =/
maybe i should start redesigning a blog page so that i can write whenever i want.feel so tired nowadays…i seems to have difficulty breathing well these days too.this prob has started wait before…actually i had it when i am going through my first breakup…eons ago…i just cant seems to grasp for enough air,therefore feels exhausted easily.
haha love can be a blessing but when they turn sour.it can be a poison in life =P
still feeling depress u ask?
hmmm…well a little i guess.memories will always be there,but i am taking it as a learning lesson for me.at least it’s for my future love i guess as well as to help those who has the same woes.
today was quite a shocking day,tears from someone i know made me feel kinda sad.got to know her from a game but she’s quitting due to personal prob.but that’s not the prob…she is going through something that had happened to me before.haha well she is really like me.at least most part of our character links in a way.that’s why i know how she feel when things happen.how can the world be so cruel…though i know the world works in a dark way but…does love have to be something that will change…?human changes …so does their feeling change too just because they seemly want better things in life?
a lot ppl are just simply having to much comparence with others to a point of thinking that they are not getting enough for themselves…
"kono sekai no ningen wa honto wo bakemono desu…."
those who understand jap will know wat i mean
cos i really think that somethings animals are better then humans…
we have brains but we are evil at heart
without guidances we will stray back the origins of life…darkness…
i will pray for all who feels the pain…especially that friend of mine.
may God bless her with the blesses from all expect of her life.relationship and family…
lol i wanted to continue the blog on indonesia trip but to think that i have so much to type really make me wanna faint xD
lol so i decided maybe i will summaries it later to write it in the blog
anyway tonight was a all nite hang out wit my friends
went out to feast and try out the water smoke XD
i was pretty much against smoking but well no harm trying out something i never try before.anyway it’s nothing like cigeratte anyway a big bottle of water filtering away the ashes and giving you aroma of fruity favoured smoke
was kinda funny but i only took a few puff to try.i promise myself though that it will be the last that i ever to anyway involving smoking
that’s 1 principle and promise i intending to keep
after which we went off on a van of my friend to selegie for LAN "battlefield 2"
lol play till 2 am then come home =X
was quite fun though XD never expect me to say that.
at least i am still hanging out rather then staying at home lol.Guy’s nite =D
5 sept 2006
haha finally flying in the sky now.for some reason i feel very free when i see the clouds.has been awhile since i last flew oversea.never stop amusing me when i fly abroad.i donno what activities going to happen but nothing gonna ruining this flight haha
6 sept
haha 2nd day has come to welcome us.yesterday pass by well.our accomadation is in a city area and not in some ragged camp.we arent allowed to roam the street.so the tv was our next best choice.but we expected,90% of the shows are in malay haha
dinner was nice,but the view of our area is great.haha kinda like a romantic place haha
8 sept
interesting start of the day we spend practically the whoile morning visiting the fabric factory.they fabricate for amount most of the militant uniforms as well as batik wears.lol not really something of great excitement though -.- but oh well at least it’s part of a culture exchange.
the second place is the palace of the king.and man is it a wowser~
the place was grand with chendaliar.we were invited to the dining hall just the dining hall it’s like that o.O
rich>.< anyway i was facinated by the backyard which was filled with the "sand of the sea" the thinny minerals shines with grace to the demour of the palace.it’s amazing how everything is mix in perfectly~
haha finally in the transit area of changi airport.how long as it been since i last step in here =)
a few months i guess haha.it’s cool that once again i am going off on a plane
a dream that i has once again being fulfilled.i do hope that next time it will be me whose paying and flying on my own haha.with someone that i love
came here a bit too early in fear of being late haha reach around 5.40am xD
my meeting time is 7am XD
but it’s kinda crazy that the taxi fare can rise up so much…$33.55 LOL
so much for wanting to buy duty free liquor -.-||| now i have to borrow some from my friend in order to buy it >.<"
i will update more on today if i get to use anymore net when i reach indonesia ^^.going to jump from one plane to another XD
singapore => jakarta => solo city hahalol strange name for a city =x "solo" city haha i am going to name any game city after this city from now on =P
haiz today last day in sg till i go indonesia for 2 weeks
a least i have no worries now.free from commitment
last time i keep having to worry that if i were to go oversea my gf will be lonly and stuff but o well wat’s past is past haha
i know there is still a part in me that i cant forget about her but i think it’s a flame that has to be blown off .as many would have know i am a online gamer
in the ro world…playing that game had became a part of while i can get close to someone since i cant meet her out often
but now that i have quit it i just wanna give that ac to her.
haha yea i am stupid…i know i shouldnt be even msging her cos the result is easily seen and feel…i fellt another blow of atk from her words…although they are meaningless to her but the intonation i see in the text creeps up my feelings
the"watever do u think i care" feeling.
haiz…i mean no harm or anything.just wanna let her have it afterall she is the one i think most adequat to have my ac.haha boku wa baka dayo…can tell she dont really appriciate it anyway.
o well one can never get a certain respect in things if misunderstanding is always there.it’s not like i am trying to patch it up or affecting her lifestyle.i respect everyone’s personal space.that’s just my style…hope everyone in the world will do the same to their love ones.Knowing more ppl is good…Filrting is bad…know yours limits…if you have a gf or a bf treat them well.they deserve the love unless they did something that makes u feel bad to beyong forgiveness…
prayers to all couple for a blessed life
Has been a long time since i last blog
so much things has happened these days
donno where to start from also haha…
it can start way back to almost start of the year but haha i dont think i wanna go that far
been busy these days with ns exercise.one after another…
soon i will be going to indonesia for my oversea exercise.never expect that my traveling days will end up been taken in NS life
all my life i have planned to go places
but well that’s kinda a restrict to me cos of the money i earn =/
more over family sharing too
sigh…i wonder how long do i need to live to break out of those nonsense lifestyle
i want my life back.not about freedom but just something that i can decide on my own and not by others.i am not a slave=/ but …sometimes it makes me feel likethe world is enslaving me…feel so lonly at times…
not much ppl can really understand me anyway haha
i had like a 3 page long blog i wrote during my last exercise about my woes.
but i think it’s best to let it go.wat else can a guy be trouble other then money and love haha.kinda a very sterotype lifestyle if i say so myself
so end up i think a silent listener is always good to clear de mind haha
hope my blog will grow to become a more cheerful one
just like wat i like to do cheering ppl up haha
